My own thoughts and feelings.

I am just a simple person, I feel happy with the simple things in life. I am a very pessimistic person,I never let negative energy ruled over me. But many misunderstood me,that including my husband.
America was affected in this Global crisis the world is suffering now,and many have lost thier jobs.Thanks God! my husband still have his job,but the income is not the same,but at least he have work.I know its not easy,supporting me and my daughter,plus he have a son still in his care.And his paycheck is almost not enough of all the expenses.I can hardly or rather,I can't buy my own needs for the money he is sending me,its just enough for our daughter needs and my foods every week,honestly..it wouldn't be enough if I am living alone...but I'm living with my parents until my husband can afford to take us in America.
But,I'm still smiling amidst this crisis,and I'm telling my husband it will be okay,but he misunderstood me,he thought I don't understand what he is dealing with,he thought maybe I just don't care enough to feel the situation how bad his financial problems.
God! I do understand,i do feel the hardship,I too knew how difficult it is to have money and not enough for all your needs and for your loveones,but i don't have a work,all i can do is pray for my husband that he would have work and his income gets better everyday.He is miserable enough,how could I put another load on his shoulder and add his misery.I need to be in the brighter side,with that he would not feel so down.I appreciates him and gives him more courage to go on and do not lost hope.Thats the best thing i can do,to uplift his low spirit in that moment.
People judge me that I eluded the truth about the reality,but its my reality...I face life with a smile and a positive out look.You can never defeat the trials if you face it with bitterness.Instead,try to be happy and determine about your goals.In that way, all the negative energy will be replace of the positive energy,with that you can remove whatever the rocks in front of you.
I am just a happy person and thats me,I feel sad when a person is sad...but i always find a way to make me smile.I look around and see the real world,there are people who are less fortunate than me,why should i be sad? God always touch me in a way that always drove away the loneliness and frustration thats eats away the soul of a person.And for that I should be thankful enough.
Life is a struggle..if you have the air of life..praise God! if you have foods on your table..praise God! if you have clothes to cover you..praise God! if you have everything you need...praise God!
Sometimes,trials,pains and heartaches make us stronger..just put your feet firmly on the ground and believe in your self,you can do it.And I hope my husband really understood me,and his love for me stay as we go on day by day,as I love him eternally.